I really formed a connection with that boy.

Since I've been here, in NC, reminiscing like CRAZY, Chris called my phone at home, and left an apology for lies.

He's a dick. It's not doing anything for him, but making my skin crawl just a little bit more at the thought of what we had. But I still think that it's not just chance that I fell so deep into vivid memories around the time he called. I wish I could sever that tie. I'd give up the whole "self strength" thing I thought I had going for me.

Is it bad that I do not miss home one bit? I could do without communication with everyone there. Everyone there. I cannot wait to get away. I will leave everyone in the dust. I'll pay back anyone I might have to borrow from through college, and then I'll disappear. That is what I want more than anything. My own freakin' existance, alone. I feel like a sociopath in saying that.

back N forth//back N forth

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